Stumbling Through the Day

I feel like I'm in some sort of a fog. I know it's the radiation fatigue. I slept for several hours today, but I'm still dragging and my eyes are at half mast. I have been doing paperwork - bills, filing, checking receipts against statements - for the past 3 hours, so that may have contributed to it, but I'm glad to have at least accomplished something. Jim just returned from a Citizens' Council meeting where he spoke about the proposed Waste to Energy topics that have been in the news quite a bit lately. He did a PowerPoint demonstration for the first time, and it went fine.

Carolyn gave us some primroses yesterday, and I can't wait to plant them. I also have some rain lily bulbs that need to go into a pot or 2, and some chestnuts that Cathy shared. As long as it doesn't rain, I'll get that done tomorrow. I hope. There's so much to do outside now that it's officially Spring. I was thinking about our fish in the small pond at the patio yesterday, and wondering how they have fared through the winter. They're comets - gold fish - who were babies last spring. This year we will probably have some more babies. I also need to check on the hibiscus plants in the basement to see how they're doing. Last week one of them was in bloom. Still way too early to bring them back outside, but I know Jim would like them out so he can spread out his wood working area.

Eight more treatments to go. After tomorrow's treatment I'll have the weekend off - hooray! Tomorrow the doctor is going to come in and put some more markings on me where the last five treatments will be given. I only have 3 more treatments of the whole chest wall, shoulder, and back. He said the last 5 treatments will be concentrated along the mastectomy scar area. There is a lot of redness and dark brown tanning where it's been radiated so far. I'm pretty sure it will probably take a year or more to fade, if it ever does totally. When I get a tan, which isn't nearly as dark as this is, it stays for quite a while before fading. There's also a lot of dark brown freckling on the shoulder on the left side, like a whole bunch of age spots or keratoses. Right now they're itchy. Is there no end to the insults to the body from cancer treatment? Ah well ...

PHOTO: Spring through the trees on Cold Saturday Farm.